Astrology, Health, and Healing Through Grief: The Beginning (Part 1 of 3)
The last selfie my dad and I took together in July 2022
My dad and I were super close. In the decade before he died, I knew his eventual passing would break my heart because I loved and appreciated him so much. And yet, I couldn’t have imagined the immense grief I felt the night he took his last breath, as I urged him to go to the light after 36 short hours at home on hospice.
In the immediate weeks after his death, I didn’t really have time to grieve. Nothing prepares you for the “work” after someone passes – contacting the attorney, getting and distributing copies of the death certificate, organizing the cremation, closing and moving accounts, notifying friends and family… plus Mom was still recovering from a bad fall and surgery the month before. While all these things were a lot to carry, they also gave me something to focus on instead of my sadness at losing his loving presence.
But then, the unexpected started to happen.
A month after I said goodbye to the greatest man I’d ever known, I returned to hot yoga classes at my favorite studio, needing the love and solace of my community. During the quiet savasanas of the 26x2 floor sequence, recovering from the standing poses, I started to see, feel, and hear him.
I couldn’t hide my tears. I’d lie there, crying as silently as possible, missing him so much.
One day I asked him why he always came to me then, during yoga, and he said, “because that’s when you’re still.”
That moment cracked me wide open. My grief didn’t vanish, but my perception shifted. Even for me as an intuitive, I began to realize there was MUCH more happening than what my spirit could understand.
Something began to bloom. Through his loving presence and guidance, subtle whispers, patterns, and insights wove together. I started channeling a new way of merging astrology, health, and healing, excited to share it with clients and the world.
But to my great disappointment, it wasn’t time yet. I forced myself to put it aside and focus on other work, trusting that Grace would urge me forward when I was ready. When this new process was ready.
How has grief brought gifts into your own life? Have your loved ones “visited” you since their passing? Please comment below and let me know. I know I’m not alone in this!
I’ll share more with you about Grace’s Divine timing and what gifts started to emerge in Part 2, The Awakening. For now, I simply wanted you to know that something magical has taken root, and how that happened: in the anguish of grief, in the stillness of yoga, in the love between a father and daughter that continues to evolve and grow, and through the loving hand of God.
Lots of love,
Jennifer 🌹